Pain In Agony

You know what? I've actually almost forget that I owned a blog. haha.. Too much holidays n relaxation seems to deter consciousness huh?haha..

Here, back in my hometown Teluk Intan, there is a new cinema. I'm going to watch Transformer II with Syouk n Ustaz Palie tmrrow.. Can't wait!!

Ok2, on a more serious note, lets discuss whats happening in our "beloved" 1Malaysia. Let see.. Can I continue writing in Malay please??

Biasiswa Nasional. Itulah antara tajuk utama muka depan UTUSAN hari ini. . Mula-mulanya, PM kita, Datuk Seri Najib cakap JPA akan 'open' biasiswa kepada pelajar yg benar2 layak. Pastu beliau cakap lagi, peruntukan banyak untuk SJKC. ada pulak berapa juta ntah untuk bina lagi puluhan SJKC. dan, yang paling tak tahan, ayat last dia, "...jangan sesekali lupa sumbangan kerajaan BN"..haha.. lawak la..

Orang kalau buat baik, jasa tak mintak orang lain ingat. Benda yg baik orang akan automatik ingat. tak pernah lagi aku ingat ada orang tolong makcik tua lintas jalan lepas tu cakap, "Mak cik, jangan sesekali lupa jasa saya tolong makcik nie tau!!".. bunyi cam tak ikhlas... tapi, macam apa yang pernah aku belajar dekat KYUEM, ikhlas itu adalah rahsia dalam rahsia. Tak ada sesiapa pon yang tahu, melainkan Allah SWT.

Ayah aku cakap, bila jadik perkara macam ini, habislah orang melayu. Sekarang orang cina susah nak dapat biasiswa. Tapi still ramai yang kaya raya. Sebab depa ada banyak duit. dan sebab depa SANGAT RAJIN. nanti bila orang melayu tak dapat biasiswa dah, habes la. bdk2 melayu yang PEMALAS, HOPELESS akan merempit sini sana. nak cari duit 'halal' katakan..
Pekerjaan @ profession yg 'berkelas tinggi' akan jadi tempat orang cina sahaja. Tengok Teluk Intan sudah. Orang kaya2 yang selalu wat 'Investment' yang ada kilang sini sana, suma orang cina. depa nak kasik barang laku, guna nama orang melayu. dapat komisen bumiputera lagi. tapi untung, suma cina yang punya. tengok dekat Sitiawan. Lim Kong Ding. sapa tak knal? Yu Neh Huat. Sapa tak knal? habes suma tanah dekat sana depa majukan jadik kawasan perumahan. Yang 'bijak' nya, kalau dulu Kerajaan kasik tanah pajak 99 tahun, depa jual kat cina (sebab harga mahal2 mana orang melayu mampu) depa kasik pajak 999tahun. habes anak cucu melayu tak da tanah.

Itu apa yang ayah aku cakap. Aku?

Biasiswa neh benda yang baik. guna untuk bantu orang melanjutkan pelajaran. Aku tak kisah bangsa mana. yang penting orang itu layak. Layak kat sini bermaksud 'deserved' in terms of qualification, ie keputusan yang memberangsangkan, perangai yang baik(supaya tahu menghargai), dan yang paling penting TIDAK MAMPU MASUK U DENGAN DUIT SDR. kalau orang kampung, duit tak da, ayah ngan mak keja sawah je, anak sulung, adek beradek ada 20 orang, mana nak masuk u sdr? nie la guna biasiswa.

Bak kata pepatah, "the strong survives the weak dies". sama la. Bangsa mana yang lemah, Goodbye la. skrang dunia 'persaingan', its a FLAT world, bak kat pakar ekonomi Thomas L. Friedman dalam bukunya "the world is FLAT". its all come down to competition. Winners will benefit, losers will incure losses. That is the rule of the world. kalo tak nak kalah, wake up. Gosok gigi pastu tengok cermin. Where do you stand in this world?

Tapi aku pon sebnanya tak brapa sokong ngan tindakan Najib neh. Sebab orang cina rata-ratanya kaya maya belaka. Orang melayu neh ha yang miskin tapi sombong, kedekut, gosip kuat(tetibe je..) macam2. Saket kepala baca. Aku kadang2 rasa orang terlalu obses ngan kaum la. Sape sroh? kita dok m'sia, multiracial. kita kena 'behave' macam tu. ntah la..

Islam ajar kita untuk perjuangkan agama, bukan kaum(sebnanya bukan nasionalisme jugak).
Tapi aku personally rasa tak salah kalau kita perjuangkan agama dan negara pada masa yang sama sebab kalau kita 'push' agama ja, orang non-muslim susah arr nak sama-sama serentak seirama. Ntah la..

Anyway, aku sekarang nie tengah layan citer 'Chuck'. Llagi best dari layan citer M'sia. haha..

It was dark that night. The wind blows in a perpetual manner that it seems all the trees are waving without end. It was freezing, to say the very least, that ink-dark night.

A man, noble and pious, was performing du'a, praying for Allah to grant his wishes. He lived in a small hut, barely equipped with floors and walls. And as expected, Abba, was in dead-cold condition. He was hoping for some heat, and possibly a fireplace, to warm his shaking body.

Another man, filled with greed and hatred, was standing miles away in his 5-inch-thick coat. He was very much comfortable, with his luxury possessions, and can be simply described as anything but the poor Abba. He was having trouble sleeping that night, despite his wealthy belongings was keeping him warm and safe in the blazing and freezing night. He stared outside, and suddently felt that he wanted to demonstrate his 'power' to Abba, that he decided to go to Abba's hut. He brought along his gas-lamp.

Abba was still praying at that time. he eavesdrop Abba's prayer, and heard,
" O' Allah the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful. You are the Lord of all man, and You are the Most Powerful of all. Grant me heat, as I am freezing without Your help, grant me light, as I am in darkness without Your light. "

The rich man suddenly thought about an idea. He wanted to give this poor Abba 'light' and 'heat', and would like to see Abba's reaction. He quietly put his gas-lamp infront of Abba's door and knock the door many times. He then hid behind a huge rock.

Abba: Alhamdulillah, Allah, You have granted my wishes by giving me this gas-lamp. Now I can burn my logs and start a fireplace. Allahuakbar! Alhamdulillah.

Rich Man: Wait a minute you poor little brat! there is NO ALLAH's HELP! that lamp was mine. I purposedly put it in front of you door! not Allah. you should thank me, not Him. Even I was listening to your prayer, He did'nt. Can't you see? Allah is NOT LISTENING TO YOUR PRAYER!

Abba:(shocked with the rich man's statement, while burning some sticks and logs)Oh, my.. I'm sorry, I did'nt notice you were there. Thank you for your help, Alhamdulillah, Allah answers my prayer. Here you go, your gas-lamp. I can't thank you enough for your kindness, may Allah repay you for your deeds.

Rich man: Are you deaft or something? I said I was the one giving you the lamp. Not Allah. Why must you thank him? He's not even listening to your prayers let alone aswering them!

Abba: I'm sorry, but I think you are not blind.

Rich man: What!!! you ungrateful little pest!

Abba: I mean, you are not blind but you did'nt see clearly. It was Allah who sent you here to give me this help. If it was'nt because of Him, you might have been asleep or something, but he wanted to answer my prayers, via you. you come here and lend me a help. But it was Him that at the very first place puts into your heart to initiate you to come here and help me. Allah's the one that make all things work, Allah is the most gracious, the Most merciful. Lord of the Judgement Day, Lord of the Earth and Sky, Heaven and Hell. He's the one that have been putting everything into place. Right?

Rich man: (embarrased) Owh.. I see what you mean.. I'm sorry..



The moral of the story, remember, everything happens because Allah wanted it to happen. Beyond our understanding, Allah knows better. He has put things into order, that we should be very grateful of. That's why we should say "alhamdulillah'' for frequently, because Allah's rahmah was way beyond any borders. Alhamdulillah.

Hye there!~ Peace be upon you~

Atm, I still have 4 papers to go. Can't wait to finish them all, so that I can enjoy my holidays!
Before I continue with my holiday plans, I think I should include a few "highlights" from the past two weeks.
Lets start with the "good things" first shall we?

Ok, the first good thing must be the Chemistry Practical and Further Pure. Alhamdulillah, I felt very comfortable after both of these papers. Hopefully the result will be as good as my feelings. :)

Then, there was my old friend, back from primary school(SKRPM) called me. {well, literally I called her, but she's the one asking me to do so} She and a few other old classmates( 5/6 R) was there, celebrating teachers day. I missed my teachers!! huhu..

Oh, ya, btw, I felt very much energetic last week. It was the first ever time I go out and sports( I played Basketball, football, pingpong, and I even tried my hands(well, it should be my legs) on jogging. I felt so happy, and relaxed as well.

Ok, now the bad things. I did mention about Newcaslte Utd being underthreat of relegation did'nt I? well, its no longer a nightmare, it is the plain truth. As Al said during the post-match interview, "the table did'nt lie. We deserved to be relegated". It was so heartbreaking the swallow the fact that The Magpies are no longer in the EPL. then who's going to be the most fanatic and fantastic fans in PL now? haisyh..

Then, It was Mike Ashley, who couldnt help himself seeing the geordie nation in massive pain, added salt to the wound. He announced that Newcaslt will again be put on sale. There you go, the big "STABILITY" word that came out of his very own mouth does'nt seem to be what he's looking for eh?

Then, on tuesday, it was the Applied Maths. I have to say, IT'S really hard!! well, I don't really know what I should do, I think I missed out about 20 marks or so.. huhu.. Looks like I'm going to be mightily nervous comes August(or was it June when the result being announced?) owh..

I think that's all the 'big' events I've gone trough this two weeks.. Hrm.. About my future plans for the holidays.. lets see...

-I wanted to go back to my secondary school~MRSM taiping~ to collect my SPM certificate. I heard the "pesta debat" is also fast approaching. If possible, It would be very nice to observe as well.

-I got BNM's Pre-Departure Camp.. Its on 26th of June.. 4 days at Lanai Kijang.. Well, its not so bad is'nt it?

-Then I also got BTN.. the date has yet to be confirmed.

-I want to learn cooking! I definitely gonna miss M'sians food.. better learn how to cook my fav dish~Gulai lemak Paku+Ayam Masak Merah~ quickly.. Hrmn... Rendang Dinding must be on the schedule as well, and then there's Kari Ikan Kayu, bla, bla, bla... Er.. can I just bring my mother as well? hee

-I have'nt got my driving license.. so far I just used my mother's scooter without having a driving license.. It's wrong I know, but what do you expect?

-Then, I really need to strengthen my understanding in Islam. I'm quite sure there's a hell lot of obstacles out there. A wise man once said, "sediakan payung sebelum hujan!!"

-I promised my self to 'khatam' Al-Quran at least once more before I depart. Hopefull I'll finish it as well...

Hey, wait a minute.. Its not as if its 'certain' that i'm going to UCL anyway! Well, I don't think its wrong to prepare things right? haha..