Pain In Agony

Oyt!! Memandangkan PPSMI dah dimansuhkan(untuk tahun 2012) Penulis kali ini ingin menulis kembali dalam bahasa ibunda, Bahasa Malaysia.(tukar2 la.. borink kowt asyik orang puteh ja... ahha)

AMARAN!!: Post kali ini mungkin berbaur perkauman sedikit. Jika anda rasa anda ini jenis yang sensitif, terlalu 'narrow-minded' dan sukar menerima kritikan@kutukan, dinasihatkan agar segera menutup browser anda. Sebarang kemalangan(hati, jiwa etc) tidak akan ditanggung. :D

Baru hari selasa hari itu penulis pulang ke rumah setelah 5 hari berada di Lanai Kijang mengikuti kursus BNM. Sangat seronok rasanya setelah diberi peluang melihat dengan mata sendiri apa situasinya bekerja di BNM, perkongsian pengalaman dengan 'orang2 besar' BNM etc. Sangat seronok!!!

Kemudian, hari rabu pula penulis pulang ke MAKTAB RENDAH SAINS MARA TAIPING (weeee!!!!) untuk mengambil sijil SPM. Lucu rasanya melihat adik2 f4&f5 yang memakai baju bewarna biru itu. Semasa melalui PSP terbayang semula segala memori dan kenangan semasa diri penulis masih menuntut disana. Situasi pembelajaran di MRSM sememangnya telah banyak menyumbang dalam pembentukan cara belajar penulis. huhu..

Ok2.. cukup arr aku cuba menulis dengan skema. Tak kena. Tak masuk. Rasa janggal. Nak muntah.. haha.. erm.. berbalik kepada tajuk post kali neh.. KISAH 2 EKOR KETAM

Cerita ini diceritakan oleh ayah aku, beberapa hari setelah Dato Seri Najib mengumumkan biasiswa nasional. Ceritanya begini...

Ada seorang ah pek yang menjual ketam di pasar malam. ada macam2 jenis ketam yang dijual oleh ah pek itu. Boleh kata ada dekat 10 jenis la. Memang orang kampung kat situ pun panggil ah pek tu apek ketam. Die kira taukeh la. Kaya orangnya..

Berbalik pasal ketam. Seorang minah neh teringin la sesangat nak beli ketam. die pon bertanya la kat ahpek tu pasal harga ketam.

"apek, berapa harga ketam cokelat tu eh?"

"owh, yang tu murah ja.. rm5 sekilo."

Terkejut minah tu dengar. Apsal la murah sangat agaknya.. die pon mula 'suspicion' dengan ketam tu. Die tanya plak ketam laen.

"Yang kuning2 sket tu plak?"

"yang neh mahal. RM50 sekilo. Bukan ape, ketam ini arr, susah wo mau tangkap. Dia manyak pandai kasik larik punya.. Tengok saya pon kasik ikat sama dia. Tarak mahu dia lari punya wo.."

Barulah minah tu perasan ketam cokelat tadi diletak dalam besen besar sahaja tanpa diikat pon. Ketam kuning tu plak dah la diikat, diletak dalam besen besar siap berjaring lagi, takut lari. Minah neh dalam kecurigaan, terus meng'observe' ketam2 tadi. Ingin benar die mengetahui sebab sebenar perbezaan harga itu.

Setelah lama diperhati, barulah die faham.

Ketam cokelat tu, bila seekor dah nak lepas besen tu sebab panjat dengan gigih, seekor lagi akan tarik supaya yang mula2 tadi jatuh balik. Ketam cokelat neh, dengki. Bagi depa, kalo aku tak lepas, ko pon tak leh lepas. At the end, sekor pon tak leh lepas. so, tak perlu la nak tangkap n ikat2 ketam tadi.

Ketam kuning nih plak, walaupun dah diikat dengan tali, still depa masih dapat panjat lagi besen tadi. Sekor ketam akan cuba mengepit tali ketam yang seekor lagi, supaya 2-2 dapat lepas dari tali. Bila nak panjat pulak, sekor akan berada di bwah, dan tolak yang seekor lagi keluar. kerjasama itu ada. Ketam kuning ini plak sangat bijak. Depe sedar, kalo bwat keje sorang2 tak akan berjaya. So kalo cara A tak jadik, depa sentiasa ada cara B.

Sebnanya ketam2 neh tak da bezanya dengan perangai manusia. Ada satu kaum nieh kuat dengki, bila satu pihak berjaya, satu pihak laen mesti bersungguh2 menjatuhkan pihak yang berjaya tadi. Bukannya nak sama2 berjaya, tapi nak berjaya as in "aku berjaya, ngko tak!!" punya semangat. At the end, kaum neh, makin lama makin ketinggalan.
Ada satu kaum laen pulak, kuat gle 'kerjasama' depa, sampai seolah2 ada ja benda yang bleyh memajukan depa. Depa siap2 bwat 2 parti, tapi 2-2 parti bukan bertujuan berpecah belah. Tujuan nya nak pastikan supaya 2-2 pihak bekerja keras untuk kebaikan kaum. Korang tengok sendiri lah, pernah dengar tak MCA gaduh ngan DAP? tak!! baru2 neh kat kedah yang pasal runtuhkan ladang babi, DAP marah, MCA pun marah. Perjuangan depa sama, nak majukan parti. Bukan macam UMNO ngan PAS, saling menjatuhkan. OOooppsss... huhu..

So, korang dah nampak kan moral of da story? agak2 ketam cokelat tu kaum apa la yea? haha..

You know what? I've actually almost forget that I owned a blog. haha.. Too much holidays n relaxation seems to deter consciousness huh?haha..

Here, back in my hometown Teluk Intan, there is a new cinema. I'm going to watch Transformer II with Syouk n Ustaz Palie tmrrow.. Can't wait!!

Ok2, on a more serious note, lets discuss whats happening in our "beloved" 1Malaysia. Let see.. Can I continue writing in Malay please??

Biasiswa Nasional. Itulah antara tajuk utama muka depan UTUSAN hari ini. . Mula-mulanya, PM kita, Datuk Seri Najib cakap JPA akan 'open' biasiswa kepada pelajar yg benar2 layak. Pastu beliau cakap lagi, peruntukan banyak untuk SJKC. ada pulak berapa juta ntah untuk bina lagi puluhan SJKC. dan, yang paling tak tahan, ayat last dia, "...jangan sesekali lupa sumbangan kerajaan BN"..haha.. lawak la..

Orang kalau buat baik, jasa tak mintak orang lain ingat. Benda yg baik orang akan automatik ingat. tak pernah lagi aku ingat ada orang tolong makcik tua lintas jalan lepas tu cakap, "Mak cik, jangan sesekali lupa jasa saya tolong makcik nie tau!!".. bunyi cam tak ikhlas... tapi, macam apa yang pernah aku belajar dekat KYUEM, ikhlas itu adalah rahsia dalam rahsia. Tak ada sesiapa pon yang tahu, melainkan Allah SWT.

Ayah aku cakap, bila jadik perkara macam ini, habislah orang melayu. Sekarang orang cina susah nak dapat biasiswa. Tapi still ramai yang kaya raya. Sebab depa ada banyak duit. dan sebab depa SANGAT RAJIN. nanti bila orang melayu tak dapat biasiswa dah, habes la. bdk2 melayu yang PEMALAS, HOPELESS akan merempit sini sana. nak cari duit 'halal' katakan..
Pekerjaan @ profession yg 'berkelas tinggi' akan jadi tempat orang cina sahaja. Tengok Teluk Intan sudah. Orang kaya2 yang selalu wat 'Investment' yang ada kilang sini sana, suma orang cina. depa nak kasik barang laku, guna nama orang melayu. dapat komisen bumiputera lagi. tapi untung, suma cina yang punya. tengok dekat Sitiawan. Lim Kong Ding. sapa tak knal? Yu Neh Huat. Sapa tak knal? habes suma tanah dekat sana depa majukan jadik kawasan perumahan. Yang 'bijak' nya, kalau dulu Kerajaan kasik tanah pajak 99 tahun, depa jual kat cina (sebab harga mahal2 mana orang melayu mampu) depa kasik pajak 999tahun. habes anak cucu melayu tak da tanah.

Itu apa yang ayah aku cakap. Aku?

Biasiswa neh benda yang baik. guna untuk bantu orang melanjutkan pelajaran. Aku tak kisah bangsa mana. yang penting orang itu layak. Layak kat sini bermaksud 'deserved' in terms of qualification, ie keputusan yang memberangsangkan, perangai yang baik(supaya tahu menghargai), dan yang paling penting TIDAK MAMPU MASUK U DENGAN DUIT SDR. kalau orang kampung, duit tak da, ayah ngan mak keja sawah je, anak sulung, adek beradek ada 20 orang, mana nak masuk u sdr? nie la guna biasiswa.

Bak kata pepatah, "the strong survives the weak dies". sama la. Bangsa mana yang lemah, Goodbye la. skrang dunia 'persaingan', its a FLAT world, bak kat pakar ekonomi Thomas L. Friedman dalam bukunya "the world is FLAT". its all come down to competition. Winners will benefit, losers will incure losses. That is the rule of the world. kalo tak nak kalah, wake up. Gosok gigi pastu tengok cermin. Where do you stand in this world?

Tapi aku pon sebnanya tak brapa sokong ngan tindakan Najib neh. Sebab orang cina rata-ratanya kaya maya belaka. Orang melayu neh ha yang miskin tapi sombong, kedekut, gosip kuat(tetibe je..) macam2. Saket kepala baca. Aku kadang2 rasa orang terlalu obses ngan kaum la. Sape sroh? kita dok m'sia, multiracial. kita kena 'behave' macam tu. ntah la..

Islam ajar kita untuk perjuangkan agama, bukan kaum(sebnanya bukan nasionalisme jugak).
Tapi aku personally rasa tak salah kalau kita perjuangkan agama dan negara pada masa yang sama sebab kalau kita 'push' agama ja, orang non-muslim susah arr nak sama-sama serentak seirama. Ntah la..

Anyway, aku sekarang nie tengah layan citer 'Chuck'. Llagi best dari layan citer M'sia. haha..

This evening, I went out to Tanjung Malim. Together with Akmal, Hafidz n Golo. We don't really have any specific aims really that evening, just wanna have some fun.. It's kinda bored you see, sitting in front of your desk, reading books and doing maths all day.. so at 4.00 pm, hafidz came up with the idea to go out, and we all agreed. After performing Asar prayers at Musolla As-Saad, we went out.. We started buying things that have been ordered by others(I hate it when people ordered a whole lot of things, and not giving the money in advance.. who do they think I am? banker or something?) Then, we ate ROJAK! haha.. its been quite a long time since I last ate rojak.. though it did'nt taste SOOO good, but well, everyone seems to have 'a clean plate' after the meal.. haha..

After that, Hafidz and Golo went on buying some stuff at Grand Union.. Then only we proceed to the one and only-Pasar MAlam!!.. I bought Nasi Lemak and Murtabak(soorrry.. can't put the pictures here.. its finish already..haha..).. It's great to see such Pasar Malam filled with tonnes of delicacies(I'm sure it will be sorely missed in UK later on), but there were some other things that was'nt so nice.. By saying it was'nt so nice does'nt mean I hate them, It just that I don't like to see it happening.. hrm.. Well, there were some "unfortunate old folks" there, some were physically challenged while others seems just too old.. My point is, they are reatively incapable of living on their own you see, but there is simply nobody who really cares about them(that includes me) and seems willing enough to at least do something to help these people. JUST IMAGINE, you, yes, you yourself being neglected like that, having to beg for other people's symphathy to keep on LIVING! Do you think you LIKE being like that? think about it, as a human, as a son/daughter or even as a complete stranger. Where are all the virtues being highlighted in our early school? I thought in my kindergarden, my teacher once told me that Old folk's are like "treasure" to others. They have abundant of experience that are far more valuable that any gold on this Earth. I bet I won't believe a single word from her if I know what happens to these people.

That is not the worst part just yet. Meanwhile, on the same time, at a relatively different scene, 'big political names' are quarelling about who should rule the land. From my humble point of view, I don't give a s*** who's the leader atm. Just look around. People ARE SUFFERING. THEY ARE QUARELLING. things will be sorted out untill one side wins. When will that happen? in the long-run you say? As Keynes once said, "we'll all be dead in the long-run". Fine, I totally understand the importance of a proper 'khalifah' leading the people to the right path. But for goodness' sake, I THOUGHT PEOPLE ARE AFRAID TO BE KHALIFAH because you'll have a whole lot of responsibilities when you do. These responsibilities will be asked in the afterworld by the Almighty Allah, thus Khalifah are supposed to be those you are BRAVE, because they are willing to be a liability for a community. But what happens now?

I'm going to put things straight now. We support one candidate for his/her party. not because of his reliability.

Example 1: Some people in Taiping if i'm not mistaken are forced to vote for a relatively unknown candidate just because they wanted to vote for BN. For me this IS WRONG. you vote for the person whom you believe are capable of leading you to the right path. Not because you wanted the party that the particular candidate is representing for. I don't want BN, PAS or any other party to lead me. I want a specific candidate, for example I have a lot of respect in Nik Aziz. But this does not mean I should simply register myself at a nearby centre as a Pemuda PAS. This in my opinion is slightly slanted. You see, when you voted a person because of his/her party, when they irresponsibly jumped party, you'll lost your vote already. It's dump and dusted if you know what I mean.

Example 2: we protested when Nizar was forced to put an end to his job, I don't mind if you protested because you know Nizar is a good leader. But many of us protested because we wanted PAS to rule our land. We "konon2nya" wanted Islam to prosper in our area. For me, that is WRONG. True, everybody want Islam to prosper. But remember, its not a one-way route we're talking about.Fine, I understand, when PAS had selected a candidate at one area, they make sure he really is a good leader. but remember, we cannot judge a person simply from his/her party only. I have to say, I barely know Nizar, and in my opinion he SHOULD be given some more time to demonstrate his credentials, so that people can judge whether he really is a good leader. But still, when you are asked to leave your position by many sides, front back and in all other directions, I don't think it's wise to resist. It'll definitely show your resolute character, but it is simply not worth to spray a huge flame at a lighting ember. You'll make things even worse. I think by being more resilience, he can have an outside chance to show the world that there were wrong and teach them all to stand along. A good leader should have the "ability" to follow other as well, because being a leader does not mean being a person whom should never be lead by others. If he showed his resilience, I believe I'll have more respect on him.

And as result you see, when these big names are fighting for "their rights", we lost our rights. These poor old folks are being neglected by everyone, but surely being neglected by the gov. must come as a huge dissapointment. They came to every pasar malam in a vain hope that someone will finally answer their call. I always thought that each district have their own "jabatan kebajikan" that were mainly funded by our taxes. Hey, did those tax were used for trials in courts to show who should be ruling the state? no wonder these people are abandoned!
or maybe those taxes were mainly used to pay the bills of labour working there. hmph.. wonder what a seemingly useless citizen like me should do.. I'm just a one person after all(does'nt this sound familiar? Earth Hour anyone?)

Again, I'm stressing my point. I've learned history. I know the blatant tragedy on 13th of May. I know how that happen. It's all down to race-political incidents. That's why these parties are formed, to show to the bloody Englishmen that we are united and can stand on our own no matter what our race are. But like what Marshall Lerner proposed in his theory of J-Curve, things tend to have to oppositely varied consequences in the long-run compared to the short-run. If its good at the beginning, it's most likely to start declining in the future. Vice versa. (remember Malaysian's old sayings,"berakit2 ke hulu berenang2 ke tepian.. bersakit2 dahulu berenang2 ketepian".. think it looks so true now.) I think its time to move on. We cannot contained our differences by forming parties, but still having different POV and aims. Acting is no longer fun, as once said. When the time comes, all those fake smile will start to change into hatred. I think we should have a individual-based election. We vote who we want to lead us, not which party. And when these bloody parties are eliminated, we won't fight in the parliament just for the sake of supporting our fellow party member. We don't have to act like monkeys anymore. There will no longer be party-based decision, no more faulty and hurting words being thrown to each other. Everyone will be focused on HELPING THE NATION TO GROW. not the party.Right?

Of course, as an economist(future economist, I supposed) I tend to have branches of sight when analysing each situation. There's always a good and bad of things, but in this case, I can say I'm quite sure(normative statement) that the drawbacks of this action is just something that we have to face and deal with. We cannot simply sit down and talk bad things behind other peoples' back but say good things when they are around. We should be what we wanted to be, not what we think what others wanted us to be.Well, that is only if we wanted to see a "civialised community", if you know what I mean.

Last night, I read a blog. an ordinary blog, written in broken English(no offence). I found it rather interesting since not only it helps people to broaden their vocabulary, but it will also improve one's writing as well.

Thus, I wanted to write in English(at least in this particular post). Yep, I wanted to change. I think change IS good. well, of course only if it is based on some solid reason(that must be right too!).Albeit that my English was'nt so good, I think it is still necessary for me to try it. And after writting about 2 papragraphs, I have to say, it was'nt easy!

Difficulty makes something challenging. Challenge builds up character. Character shapes up one's decisions and thinking. Thus, to sharpen one's precision in deciding, difficulty is what we should be longing for. As failure will bundle up our experience, and of course taught us lessons that cannot be obtain otherwise. Fine, I know I'm nagging right now. Talking some nonsense and perhaps some boring old crap. Say whatever you want, as it is up to me to write whatever I felt.

Ok, enough of some lame phrases. Let's talk about life.(again, also lame) I mean real-life situation(ok, not so lame kot..) PERAK. I've always wondered about what's happening there. It's my hometown you see, place where I grew up(most of my living years I've been staying there!) Place where I was taught about moral, respecting others, appreciating things... But know, the most respected people(well, I think it should be "people that thought that they are respected") are causing the turmoil! can you ever imagine in a school, your Principal is quarelling with HEP/HEA using some faulty words.. IN FRONT OF THEIR VERY OWN STUDENTS? same goes to this ADUN case. They fought in front(well, since evryone can watch it LIVE) of the people that voted for them! this one man in my unbiased opinion is very much unprofessional. Come on... If people don't want you anymore, just get the h*** out of there! If people still wants you, just make another election. Settle things for once and for all!! and for the other side, come on!! who do you think you are? stop it.. accept the fact that YOU ARE NOT a leader! it's getting embarassing.. not only to other Malaysians in other state, but also the WORLD as a whole!

In economic point of view, this will not only cost them, but also other third parties, which is, US! the externalities is always there.. Just imagine.. they are pulling each other's hair atm. On what circumstances dou you think they will help "rakyat perak yang malang"? What can they actually do? the district fund is there, but because both side claims to have the right to fill the hotseat, the fund will never go out. hate it so much..

So, as we can see, change(in many several case, including Hijrah by our great prophet Muhammad SAW) can be good. but on the other hand, if the changes are merely because of some unvalid reasons, like the one happened in Perak(during past election), the cost is far more severe. As commonly written in most economic essays, there will always be at least 2 possible outcome of one decision. One is good, on the other hand the other one is BAD. Its up to the government(or in the case of perak, we have NO GOVERNMENT to be trusted, we should say its up to anyone who think there are good enough) to alter some parameters to ensure one particular decision is backed up with many solid reasons..



PS: President Truman once said, "give me one armed economist!".. is'nt funny? because economist tend to be straight in evry suggestions, giving both pro's and con's, making it difficult for him to decide. haha..